Teachers !!!

Teachers play an important part in our life. They at times are crucial in carving our career and life path. Some of them may look very trivial but would have had a huge impact on our lives that may have gone un-noticed due to various reasons.

There have been teachers who also have done otherwise, identify a talent in you but fail to nurture the same. While there are some who after spotting the talent, encourage someone else who just doesn’t deserve it and in the process kill the talent.

Teachers are supposed to be impartial and treat every student by merit, but at some point in time, they develop favourites for various reasons and there are teachers who make it evident also. That as far as I am concerned is very unfair to the other students sitting in the class.

Am not cribbing because I could have taken to theatre as a serious career option considering my interest in the same, had my teacher who was in charge of all cultural activities encouraged me at that time when I needed it the most. Somehow without adequate motivation, the talent has been restricted to the four walls of my room. There are probably more students like me today who are more bathroom singers and actors.

The opportunities and the exposure that the students of the newer generation have are phenomenal and un-imaginable at the time when I studied, not that I studied in the 70’s but still by the time the technology caught up, I was done with schooling.

Today I remember my teachers with mixed feelings…. but everything said and done, if I am what I am today, its also because of the same souls who have gifted me the most valuable thing on earth called knowledge that is good enough for me to conquer the whole world and I guess that is good enough!!! J The not nurturing of the talent may be forgiven!!!

Tere Bin.....

Am sitting in office....head pounding, feeling all feverish and for some reason depressed too and of all songs this one just keeps playing in my head....adding to the depression......

tere bin main yun kaise jiya
kaise jiya tere bin
tere bin main yun kaise jiya
kaise jiya tere bin

lekar yaad teri raaten meri kati
lekar yaad teri raaten meri kati
mujhse baaten teri karti hai chaandani
tanha hai tujh bin raaten meri
din mere din ke jaise nahi
tanha badan tanha hai ruh nam meri aankhen rahe
aaja mere ab rubaru
jeena nahi bin tere
tere bin main yun kaise jiya
kaise jiya tere bin
tere bin main yun kaise jiya
kaise jiya tere bin

kabse aankhen meri raah mein tere bichhi
kabse aankhen meri raah mein tere bichhi
bhule se hi kahi tu mil jaaye kabhi
bhule na mujhse baaten teri
bheegi hai har pal aankhen meri
kyun saans loon kyun main jiyu
jeena bura sa lage
kyun ho gaya tu bewafaaa mujhko bata de wajah
tere bin main yun kaise jiya
kaise jiya tere bin ...
tere bin main yun kaise jiya
kaise jiya tere bin ...
----From the Movie Bas Ek Pal-----

A song whose remix rocks the discs in chennai....and more importantly rocks you when you hear it..... if the original sounds amazing...the remix just rocks.....!!!! I hate these songs for what they do to you....but I just can't stop my self from listening to them either....

Her memories continue to haunt me....

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah Have you ever wanted someone you just couldn't have Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart Have you ever needed someone so bad
-- Def Leppard --

She no longer happens to be part of my life....I don't call her anymore....My mobile no longer plays the ring-tone once assigned only for her....But her memories continue to haunt me....I've tried my best to move on and move on I have....Yet her memories continue to haunt me...It was I who took the call to severe the whole relationship...it was doing no good to both of us....The more we held on...the more pain....atleast for me.....What do I do....Her memories continue to haunt me....I wonder if I should pick up the phone and try once again...To try and re-build the whole thing again...But the thought of enduring the pain is holding me back....For I know its not gonna work at all...for one broken...broken....The wounds will heal...but the scars will remain....As her memories continue to haunt me......I will have to learn to live with it.....Sometime I wonder why we met....of all the people in the world.....Why did we have to meet....its very easy for me to say there is a reason....We met for a reason and we have served the purpose of us coming together.....We are not together today....but still her memories continue to haunt me......We will get back again one day....when none of this will matter.... The past will not be spoken about....leave alone reliving it…… We were once best friends but there will be no evidence of the same…As she’ll no longer matters as her memories would have long stopped haunting me by then…..

This Time Last Year!!

Year 2007 has actually started in a very funny way for me. Am still searching for the 'ME' inside and I guess the search will and should never end.

Year 2006 has been both good and bad, forgettable and un-forgettable for more reasons than one. This time last year I was fighting one of the most unforgettable (should I call it a war, I dont know...I guess I will) wars against my placement committee. Today, its all past, we have no hard feelings, I hang out with some of them...I know it and they know it, we were carrying out certain duties assigned to us. I always knew I was stubborn, but I never knew to the extent I could go till that time when I put my foot down and said, you have decided then so have I.

This time last year, I was also trying so hard to make up with a friend. Things had already gone very sour, very very sour. We were still trying to make things work. Some how it didn't last that long, but there is absolutely no remorse, we've tried our best (may be our best was not good enough)!!

Also some time during the same year, some silly fight has put an end to another so called friendship. Still cant figure out what went wrong there, but I know that we just didnt try!! Am not too sure, if we'd ever get back again.

Well 2006 was not that bad actually, I graduated!!! Am an MBA now and I don't know how :D. Some cemented friendships, some new friends......

Coming back to 2007, have entered it with mixed emotions. Lost some friends, won a few...still digging in further into me in seach of something....Lots of moments to forget from the last year, lots of moments to cherish from the last year....Lets see what the year 2007 holds for me....

Mrs. De’ Monte

A teacher affects eternity:he can never tell where his influence stops.
--Henry Adams--

My Class I and Class II teacher. I can never forget her or the lashing I got from her for forging my father’s signature on the report card, not that my marks were bad but I forgot to get it that fateful day. My friend or rather classmate forged her dad’s signature and got away with it while I managed to do a really bad job that she actually found out and gave me whacks with her cane on my palms.

I decided two things from that day. Never ever even for fun try to forge my dad’s signature (and believe me I haven't till date) and always keep your stuff/ work for the next day ready the previous night itself. That quite explains my paranoia for time.

Relationships & Expectations!!!!

Have been through this and still believe that how much we may dispute on why should we have expectations in a relation, it is an underlying fact to any relation. Expectations exist.

I was just talking to my IT guy on why he’s been so sober the whole day when the conversation slowly moved towards women, relations and expectations. When my accounts head came up with an amazing illustration. He said you stick two papers, what do you think binds them. We were like ‘glue’!! He says exactly, the glue is expectations.

Coming to think of it, I have not seen any relation, which works without expectations. To sum it up, relations are like derivatives where the underlying asset is expectations J

People who made a difference!!!

All our life, we have a whole lot of people who come in and out of our life. Some of them touch a cord in such a way that even when they are not there, you know they've made a difference.

This is my little attempt (of course in parts) to remember those people who have and are still making a difference to my life.

Attitude Matters!!!

It seems Dave Anderson and Jim Murphy joined the American Railways on the same day. Twenty years later, Dave was still doing the same job but Jim had become the Chairman of American Railways. Dave said,'I cam to work for $1.75 an hour; Jim came to work for Ameican Railways. That made all the difference.'

how so true!!!

Five Point Someone by The Madras Players

Am not a great theater enthusiast. This is my second visit to a play. I thoroughly enjoyed my first play couple of months back and this prompted me to look forward to this play. I did quite a bit of homework to find out that The Madras Players were doyens in the field of theater acts.

I was a little apprehensive as to whether they will be able to do justice to the characters and the book. I must admit they did do a really good job. The way the adaptation was done by itself was brilliant and the actors actually played their characters brilliantly. I do not have the experience and the expertise (or rather I didn't find any difference) to comment on the way they spoke English, i found it to be just fine. I really liked big eyed uttara krishnadas a lot, she sparkled in the small role she had. I just should not comment on the veterans Mr. PC Ramakrishna and Co, they were brilliant. Incidentally, the director was supposed to be the youngest in terms of directing theater plays and she had done a brilliant job on the direction front.

Overall, the two hours spent there was worth every penny and am looking forward to watching more plays now.

Our President Mr. Abdul Kalam decided to come down to Chennai. Now I have a lot of respect for him but I don't think the public should go through hardships just because he's in town. Friday night, the traffic was stopped for an hour around Adayar from 9.15 to 10.15 pm, when people are itching to go back home after a long tiring day.

What I didn't understand that why should the traffic be stopped for an hour, in today's age of technology why is it so difficult to keep track of his movement and how difficult is it to stop traffic in a matter of 15 minutes. One hour is ridiculous and that too at a time when the junta is tired, hungry and itching to get back home!!!

Now something else happened out there and reflects the sad state of affairs our country is in. I asked one of my fellow bike rider standing next to me as to why has the traffic being held up. He goes on to say in tamil, Governer vandrukaaru (the Governer has come) and when I was busy wondering which governer has actually come down, our man goes on to say, avar thaan pa, abdul kalam (you know, Abdul Kalam). I was stumped, I didn't know what to say. As it is I was hungry, tired and irritated and the last thing I needed was to tell him the difference, not that it would have made a great difference to him.... I decided to chill out by listening to some music on my phone, thank heaven for some small mercies!!!

Some Thoughts!!

1. Don't waste your time on someone who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

2. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them, knowing you can't have them!!

3. Complex problems have simple, easy to understand wrong answers.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. If your wife wants to learn to drive, don't stand in her way.

7. We must believe in luck. For how else can we explain the success of those we don't like? – Jean Cocturan

8. A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked.