Lonely

A sudden feeling of loneliness has enveloped me in the past few days. I hate this feeling...its depressing ! May be its that urge for attention from someone special...but at this point in time is not there in my life there is no one to call special.... I guess its high time to tie the knot...but where's the girl of my dreams.....helloooo.....sweetheart...do you hear me ??????

Char Dino ka ....

Char dino ka pyaar o rabba
Lambi judai lambi judai
Char dino ka pyaar o rabba
Lambi judai lambi judai

Tere bin dil mera lage kahin na
Tere bin jaan meri jaye kahin na
Kitne zamane baad o rabba
Yaad tu aaya, yaad tu aaya


Aaaaa….aa..aaaaaaaa….


Khoya raha mein, saason mein apne
Aahat bhi teri, bhool gaya mein
Kitna jeeya hoon tanha raho hoon
Ishq tera bhool gaya hoon


Khoya raha mein, saason mein apne
Aahat bhi teri, bhool gaya mein
Kitna jeeya hoon tanha raho hoon
Ishq tera bhool gaya hoon


Uljha raha mein is zindagi mein
Dil ki duhai dil ki duhai

Tere bin dil mera lage kahin na
Tere bin jaan meri jaye kahin na

Kitne zamane baad o rabba
Yaad tu aaya, yaad tu aaya


Ohhh rabbaa.. rabbaaa..aaaaaaaaaaaa….

Har bebasi mein, is zindagi ne
Tujh ko hi chaha, tujh ko hi manga
Jin raston se guzra yeh dil tha
Manzil mili na pyaar na paya


Har bebasi mein, is zindagi ne
Tujh ko hi chaha, tujh ko hi manga
Jin raston se guzra yeh dil tha
Manzil mili na pyaar na paya


Khud ko chupake rahon se guzre
Dil ko sambhle dil ko sambhle


Tere bin dil mera lage kahin na
Tere bin jaan meri jaye kahin na
Kitne zamane baad o rabba
Yaad tu aaya, yaad tu aaya

Friends - Change - Friends !!

Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends

At some point in time, we end up at what they call crossroad junctions, in our life. These junctions throuw up a variety of choices and decisions around us. The choices we make mould us into what we are today or what we become tomorrow. We are often at such crossroads in life and unfortunately there is no way to avoid it, avoiding it typically means that we have taken a decision - to avoid !

One such crossroad where we all end up is when all your friends are married, ok not all of them but most of them and suddenly you find that those impromptu / unplanned meetings are no longer happening, the usual sunday hangouts is history and evey plan has to be cross checked since the better half has to be consulted with and you suddenly find that everyone's priorities have changed and you feel grumpy, helpless and wonder what happened to all that we are friends forever shit !

Little do we realize that change (or we do realize but like everyone we resist it) is an inevitable part of life, it is the essence of life and every change does bring about its own discomfort, but though priorities and other change happen, our friends just don't love us any little. They in a way take certain things for granted and one such thing is the fact that we understand and frankly speaking I think we should. We need to appreciate this fact and move on with life because somewhere down the line, we will all have to go through the same thing our friends are going through and our friends, what we are going through.

Adapting to change that comes into their life is not very easy for our friends too, having a new person in their life who's demanding their attention, who's sharing their bed, their bathroom, their room, their personal space and that is not an easy thing to digest. All these things wouldn't have been thought out during courtship, but then even ample thoughts wouldn't have given us an idea on the intensity of the whole situation. The additional responsibilty of one more person in their life takes a longer time to digest, to adapt to. They do and will take some time to cope up with these changes. It is our responsibility to support them during this phase, even if it means just being a silent spectator, even if it means just smiling and saying I understand dude and even if it is going to take them eternity to do adapt to the changes.....after all what are friends for !!

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference

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Is it an Error or a Crime !!

To Err they say is human and to forgive - Divine, but what would you do to the people who have knowingly committed the errors. An error committed knowingly is not an error but an intentional act legally speaking its called a CRIME !!

What is even more worse is that is that the person has intentionally kept certain life threatening issue away from the person concerned, knowing fully well that when the issue comes to the fore, it is going to affect not only their life, but the life of the other person concerned and everybody else's who by some way or the other are linked to the two of them. You have the right to screw your life, you have absolutely no right, whatsoever, to screw mine !

Even today I see these so called people walk with their heads high not concerned with what they have done and what they have made other person go through. Remorse is a word that does not exist in their dictionary. They expect the others to forgive and move on with life. I am not God, I can still try to forgive but I cannot forget.... I cannot forget what you've done to me, I cannot forget what you've made me go through, I cannot forget the days I have silently cried because of you, I cannot forget the fact that you've taken my trust in you for granted and played havoc with it... I cannot forget....

I can still try to forgive simply because I believe that whatever happens, happens for one's good and I was made to go through what I had to go through for a good reason..whatever, I have learnt my lessons..... Even if I forgive or don't, there may still be some forgiveness waiting for you out there.... because who am I forgive....

Even out there, the rule is the same, forgiveness is granted for the error not for the crime..there is justice waiting to be delivered and justice will be delivered at the right time because as they say "to err is human, to persist in error is devilish"

--Amen--

Quarter Life Crisis !!

This came as a forward some 10 years back and I found it to be so so relevant and I again happen to get it couple of years back and it was still relevant, I was like man the damn thing is relevant at 20 and at 27. Today at 29 (what did you expect 40!?!?!) when I read the article again, I didn't shake my head for every sentence the way I shaked it when I was 20 and 27. Has anything changed apart from the fact am much older and hopefully that much wiser. Here's the article, let me know if its still relevant, if it is viola you are going through a quarter life crisis :-)

May be we all are going through this same dilemma which you will read in the following lines. Do spend some time in reading the entire passage and then come to a consensus. It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at wat ur studyin or ur job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion... Its called "Quarter-life Crisis." nothing is constant......except change.wats life without a few risks? keep playin the game!