She lost her brother yesterday. She would be devastated; the whole family would be devastated. I really don’t know what is going on in her mind right now. I really want to be by her side but that place has already been taken by someone else and its no longer a job for me to do. Oh hell, I so wish that someone was me !

The news of her brother has disturbed me a lot, somewhere I feel like the loss is mine too, don’t know why. I pray that his soul rest in peace, he has suffered enough…

Choices we make !

My heart sank when I saw the pain on her face, I didn't do anything other than sit quietly with her. I didn't even hold hands let alone embrace her. I was helpless, there was nothing I could do other than being there for her.

As I let her hands go and walked back, I could feel the pain inside me, as if someone has just driven a sword through me, I could feel my legs go weak and each step heavy ! It was a long walk back to the car...I was helpless, there was nothing I could do but let her go ! As always ......

My good friend is furious that I had left everything to be with her, someone who he feels has led me on. He knows that selfishness is not a very strong trait that I have and I would eventually fail miserably when put to test, but I guess he feels for me as I felt for her and probably thats why I always tend to forgive him and his antics. He'll come around...

I have always believe that we are defined by the choices we make and I had made mine, to be with her in times of distress even though I know I would be further hurting myself. I would be with her again, if she wants me to....

Quoting from Hellboy :What makes a man a man? A friend of mine once wondered.... Is it his origins? The way he comes to life? I don't think so. It's the choices he makes. Not how he starts things, but how he decides to end them!